AWEFULL

I know this post is kinda late, still it’s better late than never, right? As a New Year entry, and like what I did last year, I’ll be posting the list of the people who have touched my life or in any way influenced my way of living or the way I think or feel.

My previous year may never be perfect, but I’m glad I never felt that extreme pain which almost took my sanity in 2008 anymore. That has to be one of the biggest blessings I have received last year.

Again, after mingling with thoughts coming in my head, I have finally come up with the list of the People of my 2009 and here they are:

MY FAMILY

Like I always say, friends and lovers may come and go.. but family will always be there. I’m glad we always stick together even physical separation doesn’t stop us from being close. As we mature, my sister and I become understanding and stop fighting a lot anymore. My younger brother became caring and sensitive of how I feel. My Mom and Dad finally realized that I am no longer a kid who needs curfew and restrictions. And there goes Mikee, our little angel who never fails to make me smile.

GOGOLOSH + DUCHESS

Need I say more? They have always been the subject of my blog entries and “photoshoots”. That’s how they mean to me. I’m just so happy that God gave me the best set of friends in the whole wide universe. They even give meaning to the word “family”.. and I love them for that. I always will.

CAPTAIN SID

Well, what else can I say.. even if everything was just short-lived (or perhaps didn’t mature due to vicious circumstances), I still thank you for bringing back the smile on my face even just for a short period of time. You had my 1st Quarter of 2009. We may have lost a lot of things because of our poor attempt at being romantically attached, but I know in my heart we tried our best to become really good friends. May you find peace and contentment that you truly need.

WORLD VISION & JOHN LISTER

I truly believe that every child has the right to be educated. However, not all Filipino families afford to send their children to school. Thanks to those Non-Profit Organizations that help people in need, just like World Vision where I found the joy of sponsorship. I started sponsoring John Lister around June of 2009 when a fellow blogger, Mark posted something about World Vision in his blog. Actually, I was really keen on joining World Vision as I wanted to help that won’t require much of my time. FYI, I have been delinquent member of Hands on Manila since college due to my forever tight schedule. I know I made the right decision when I chose World Vision, coz they not only send children to school.. they also help the community help themselves through livelihood programs.

NORTEHANON

Believe it or not — I have no idea about her real name, her age and her whole identity.. what I only know about her is that she’s from Northern Samar, hence, Nortehanon. But even how clueless I am of how she looks, I know in my heart she’s beautiful inside and out. It amazes me that there’s someone like her who genuinely helps less fortunate people even without going public (and when I say public it’s a lot like what most politicians do.. errr…). She inspires me to lend a hand to people in need. Eversince I “met” her, I’ve been actively supporting her advocacy, Pens of Hope. It’s a little project that aims to give pens (even other school supplies to children in Samar. Last I heard there’s another group in Davao that organized a POH “Chapter”). For more info about the project, click HERE.

B1 & B2 (NOEY & JOSH)

I just miss being with these two crazy girls. My angels in my previous job. We went through a lot in the corporate world but they always made each horrible experience a funny one. Best wishes, Josh.. and Goodluck on your career, Noey! I miss you both.

EMERIO

I have yet to know all of them as I’ve only been with the company for barely half a year but I’d like to believe I made the right decision when I decided to enter this company. It’s good to know that while they have a common goal — that is to achieve the team’s targets and help the company progress, they don’t forget how to have a good time. And yeah, so far I’m having a good time. It’s fun being with these guys.

GB LABRADOR

Who doesn’t love this balding giant? He’s everybody’s sweetheart. Too bad he doesn’t have a sweetheart to call his own. (Calling the attention of all the single ladies out there ) He is the most patient, most caring and most optimistic person I have ever met. Come to think of this, he used to live in Provident Village in Marikina. They almost lost everything when Ondoy hit Metro Manila. But he didn’t give a damn.. he still managed to smile and have fun with us despite what happened. He always reaps treasure out of junk. Also, he always sees the good in every person, even the bad ones.. I’m one of those. And I love him for that.

THE COMICS

Thanks to my dear friend, GB, for introducing me to these people. They make my Tuesday and Friday nights pleasurable. Keep on making people laugh, guys! I support Pinoy Stand Up Comedy.

Our bond never ends during Open Mic Nights, it goes beyond drunken and crazy nights.

GB – the guy who made things possible. Thank you for dragging mo to your events.
Noel & Richie aka Dos Abogados
Chino, the hunk
Marcelle, the Magician
Ryan aka Hugh Jackman
Raffy, the Emo
Alex, the Headliner
Nace aka the Loverboy (hahaha! )

Not only did they give me free entertainment — I found good friends in them… and a lover, too. Hahaha!

[Shameless plug] Catch them: Mondays at Spicy Fingers – Greenbelt 2, Tuesdays at Alchemy – Silver City Ortigas, Wednesdays at Sidebar El Pueblo, Ortigas (though the bar’s undergoing renovation, the show’s gonna resume around March, I think. Also, we are still finding a place to be our haven, our next Ditzy Diner every Friday.) PM me for more details

TUESDAY CLUB

I met this gang late 2008, it was then The Thursday Club. We usually go to Alchemy together on a Thursday night, listen to En Masse’s jazz music then watch the comics perform. The club stopped operating for a while and when it opened again, our hang out night eventually changed, and so did the performers/program. En Masse found another place to perform at while its sessionist/vocalist Jessica brought her own band, Melo Manila and perform acoustic hits every Tuesday. Hence, we are now called the Tuesday Club. It’s great because we get to enjoy our weeknight without worrying about our work the following day. I guess the good company stops us from thinking about serious stuff like work.

FRIDAY CLUB (DITZY GANG)

An excerpt from my Facebook/Multiply Account:

I wasn’t keen on going to Ditzy Diner during its first few stand up comedy shows (despite GB’s being DEMANDING) since I found the area too far from where I work/live. After much requests (demands, actually) from him, I finally obliged. Together with my best buds, we watched the show. Good thing, we enjoyed the night (though we often see them at Alchemy, Ditzy’s ambiance is superb).. That was around March of last year, I guess. Since then, it became a routine for my friends and I — DITZY DINER OPEN MIC NIGHTS.

Not only did I enjoy the food, booze and entertainment there. It actually became a means for me to find new set of friends. Not just the superficial ones — but those who can get crazy with you yet you can share serious stuff with. In fact, I have come to realize that this place has been a very remarkable one, something that is etched in my heart. For life.

Thank you for the LOVE… as in LOOOOOVE! ? ? ?

I’m gonna miss you all! *sniff sniff*
(Awww.. ang CHEESY ko pala??!!)

For those of you who have seen my old posts, you’d surely realize how much this place means to me. This is where I celebrated my 25th Birthday while raising funds for street children; this is where we did a lot of charity events; this is where I made a lot of new friends, even the staff, crew and resident band became my friends; this is where my bestfriends and I hang out every Friday.. and most of all, this is where I found love. It’s kinda sad coz the diner is closing on the 30th, a new establishment is about to come out.

Thank you for being the best company: Lovely (teneeeeennnn!!!), Caca, Anne, Mel, Jimmy, Wal, Mae, Jaypee, JC, Benjie, Kyle, Kuya Glenn, Teddy.. Mark & Fritz, the resident band.. Jay-ar, Ditzy’s owner and his staff Reg, Claire and Jhigz.. My boy friends: Alex, David, Patrick, Robert… and a lot more. I hope I didn’t miss anyone.

DR. LOVE

Here goes the most special part of my 2009. The best gift I have ever received.

He came along when I almost gave up on love. As cliche as it may seem, but love hits you when you least expect it. He’s more than what I asked from God. He always goes beyond what is expected and just. When I met him I began to appreciate failure and heartaches in the past coz that’s when I realized something good’s bound to happen after every downfall — one perfect example is him. And his love that heals all wounds. I’m looking forward to a wonderful 2010 with him.

So there, I already shared the list of my people last year. I hope I didn’t miss anyone…

Happy 2010, my dear friends!

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People of My Year (2008)

Inspired by Bianca’s blog, this entry is a tribute to those people who made my 2008 truly exceptional. Apart from being great, my 2008 was a bit emotional as I’ve gone through a lot of downfall. As a twist, I’m including here some people who made me stronger by inflicting pain on me.

After hours of reflection, I’ve finally come up with my list. And here they are, the PEOPLE OF MY 2008.

MY FAMILY. I’ve never been this close to any of you. But thank you for the support, love and care that i always get from you. It’s never too late to keep closer and closer to each one of you. Always remember that I love you so much. Papa, though you never saw me grew up i know that I have matured because of you, because of the values that you continuously instill in me. I will always be your little girl. Mama, thank you for always keeping me company at home for 2 years now since you came back for good (though I always leave you at home because i’m always out on gimmicks.. hehe ). You’re so special because you are weird. Hahaha. joke! Ate & Kuya Mike, thank you for the endless & free (hehe!) medical support. Mako, my little brother no more, who always drives me to wherever. Thank you for this wonderful family.

MIKEE. The latest addition to our family, my nephew, Michael Archangel Mangilin Lazaro. Since he was born on the 7th of April 2008, he has always been the number 1 person to make me smile even when I’m totally wrecked (though he’s yet to find out the meaning of comfort and inspiration ). Thank you for filling in the hollow spot in my life.

GOGOLOSH. I’ve been writing a lot of entries about you since I started blogging. So I guess you already know how much you mean to me. Words are not enough to tell you how lucky I am to have superfriends like you. Thank you. Che, for being a good listener. For being my partner in almost everything. Amae, for being my toy whenever I am down. You always make me laugh (whenever I make fun of you hehe ). Nheng, for being always on the go whenever I need a company. Noelle, for making me realize that friendship can be forever even without seeing each other personally. For the times that we fought, you made me realize how important you are to me. And how sad I would be had we ignored fixing things between us. Gny, for the good times and the gimmicks. I wish you nothing but happiness. Dane & Sugar, you will always be in my prayers even if we don’t see each other. I know you are both happy in the lives that you have chosen. Dowds, 2008 was fun-filled. Thanks for the adventures, night outs, drinking sessions, travels, foodtrips, and everything. Alabyu!

VANESSA LEI aka DUCHESS. An honorary member of Gogolosh, I’d like to thank you for the countless adventures & night outs. Thank you for spending some RP & Alchemy moments with me. Sayang nga lang at di natuloy ang Coron trip natin, di bale let’s try this year. Thanks as well for appreciating and supporting one of my hobbies – blogging. Also, getting closer with you made me aware of the fact that I am lucky I am not someone like you when it comes to the matters of the heart. Hahaha! I can still hold my heart with both hands.

CAPTAIN SID. Thank you for being a good friend. Like what I always tell you: Thank you for being patient and for trying to bear with my moodswings. You may be naughty most of the time, but in my heart I know that you are one perfect gentleman. You just don’t know how much you’ve inspired me to take care of myself. It’s funny how I get so annoyed by how you make fun of my flaws yet you still manage to entertain me and make me laugh. Thank you for those constructive criticisms – from my hairstyle, my fashion statement, my nails.. up to managing and making my relationships work. Thank you for the late night conversations that truly amuse me. Thank you for the numerous moments that I made you my shock absorber. And most of all: thank you for making me smile during those times when all I had to do is cry.

THE EX. I’m not gonna deny it, if I were to enumerate the people who touched my life in the year that was.. you still deserve to be here. Don’t get me wrong, I’m no longer holding on. Hahaha! Thank you for the pain, it made me human. Thank you for the three beautiful years that ended in 2008. Thank you for the memories.

THE OTHER WOMAN. This goes to show that even “enemies” (click HERE for the story) can be friends. G, thank you for the friendship. Thank you for showing me that I am still lucky despite everything. Thank you for guiding me and taking away half of my pain. Sabi mo nga noon “Walang madaling daan. Lahat kailangan pagdaanan. Walang shortcut. Kung meron man, sana hinugot na kita at sabay tayong naglakad.” Salamat.

GAWAD KALINGA – TATALON. I was truly inspired by these people. Being with you made me realize how fortunate I am for having almost everything that I need. Thank you for showing me that there’s more to life than dwelling on problems and sinking in misery. Thank you for letting me help those people in need in my own little ways.

MY TEAM. The corporate world may be rude, but I thank God for giving me a set of great mentors and subordinates. Everyday I keep on learning. 2008 was full of trials. Just keep on going. We will make it to the top.

THURSDAY CLUB. The week isn’t complete without spending the Thursday night with you at Alchemy. Thank you for the Open Mic Nights that always make me laugh. To GB & friends, Dave & friends, the comics, the staff & crew of Alchemy Club, thank you for the warm company. It’s nice that I have found new friends in you last year guys! More parties this year!

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Now, I’m done with my list. Actually I was supposed to include John Lloyd kase he’s always inspiring me e.. hehe. but on second thought.. hmmm.. I’m just gonna write a special entry for him. Only him. Hahaha! joke lang!

Got this survey from a Multiply contact and college classmate.

Reposted and answered.. for fun!

1. Buddy of the Year? Gogolosh, of course. Ayoko mamili ng isa lang, baka magka-issue. Haha!

2. Lifetime Service Award? Gogolosh pa rin.

3. Newcomer Award – Coolest Newest Friend? That would be GB.

4. Highest Point of the Year? Ber months. I came to life again.

5. Lowest Point of the Year? July. I need not explain further.

6. Best Holiday? Birthday ko. Self-declared holiday! Haha!

7. Your Song for 2008? Pwedeng songs? Madami eh.  “Bleeding Love”.. then “Better in Time”.. then “One Step at a Time”.. now, it’s gotta be “If I were a Boy”.. I hope soon it’s gonna be “The Last Time” Naks!

8. Best movie for 2008? “A Very Special Love” (2008 ba to? Haha!) Walang basagan ng trip. Jologs na kung jologs!

9. Valentines Date? Where? Gogolosh. Forgot na where.

10. What were you for Halloween? I’m always in my Halloween costume. Effortless. A witch.

11. Restaurant of the Year? Cajun Red Rock

12. Kiss of the Year? I only had one man in my life this year. Actually, in the past three years. ^sigh^

13. Best Decision made this year? Hmmm.. fate always decides for me. I am not in control of everything.

14. What are your plans for next year? I don’t have plans yet. Que Sera Sera.

15. Most stupid idea when drunk? I’m sleepy when drunk, so I’m always not in the mood (or sane ) to think about anything. But before I was always ranting. Now, just laughing.

16. TV show of the year? Betty La Fea. Sinabi nang walang basagan ng trip eh!

17. Most loyal friends? Gogolosh pa rin.

18. Heartbreaker of the year? Need I say more?

19. Biggest change of the year? Detaching myself from bittersweet past.

20. New Year’s resolution? I don’t have any. Better read my previous posts.

FINISHED!

I welcome the new year infront of my computer, trying to write something. Trying to make a good post on the first day of the year.

But it seems that my mind is missing right now. It might have been carried by all those firecrackers I heard a while ago when the clock hit 12 midnight.

Nevertheless, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I wish you all a Prosperous year ahead of you.. and me as well.

Thanks to my cyberfriends who make writing a pleasurable activity each day. God Bless you all!

January. Our year started with a bang upon learning a bittersweet truth. Exactly New Year’s Eve, my Mom confronted my cousin (who’s like a sister to me since she almost grew up with us – away from her real family, and Mom my treats her like her own child) and asked if she was pregnant. Yes she was. At that time she was already six months heavy with child yet we didn’t even know. It felt like my Mom’s world stopped spinning. My cousin hasn’t passed the board exams yet.. and the most shocking truth was – we didn’t know who the father of the baby is. We haven’t met a guy whom she introduced as a boyfriend, suitor or whatsoever. It’s really a puzzle. Up to this date we don’t know who the fucking guy is. She never tells the truth. But we gave her what she really wanted – silence. I pity the child because she’ll grow up without a father.

Everything happened so fast. I was down in the dumps but I was happy because he was there to support me. He made the tests in my family life bearable for me. My feelings for him stayed, and got stronger, I must admit.

February. My team’s tenure at WinSource officially ended. The executives and the superiors of the team managed to set up a new shelter for us. We became independent. I felt like we were starting from scratch, but it was fun. We were able to endure a lot of challenges and those, I must say, made me tough in this cruel world of the corporate.

It was, indeed, the Love Month. Everybody else was going gaga over celebrating it with his/her beau. But my life with him was different. Our relationship (over the years) wasn’t enfolded by romantic dates and unique celebrations. Ours was something deeper (I thought so) because we were mature enough to let childish stuff just pass by. We are not getting any younger anyway. Both of us were not even financially stable. So we were just contented with simple dine outs and movies once in a while.

March. A guy friend abroad came home for a vacation. We had fun though we were not able to have numerous gimmicks together. Thanks to him for another friendship that was born out of the cyberspace. And thanks as well for bringing us back to the old days – clubbing. Hahaha! (I really think I’m getting old for this stuff ) And thanks for the inspiration. Naks.

I also had some small trips with Gogolosh. One was in Tagaytay Highlands (where we are “regulars”) to introduce the place to Caloy, the then-boyfriend of Gny. Even if we’ve been to the place several times already, it always feels like the first time because we always have something new to do or try out. Like picking vegetables at the farm, wandering around the place under the moon, etc. Everything spells F-U-N.

April. My cousin gave birth to a baby girl named Chelsea Brianna Angelique on the 6th at 6PM. On the other hand, my sister gave birth to a baby boy named Michael Archangel on the 7th at 3AM. You could just imagine how my Mom got so “hilong talilong”, she didn’t know whom to pay attention to first. They were admitted in different hospitals; one is in Cubao while the other is along EDSA Mandaluyong.

An incident happened at work that made me literally want to give up my corporate life. It was a threat to my ego and my life. I was so down and I felt like I just wanted to take a break from everything. Through this, I learned that TRUST is so precious – you cannot just give it to anybody. Even those who you treat as friends can be detrimental to your career as well as your personal life. Be guarded. It’s hard to gain real friends from the corporate world nowadays. I felt a little lighter though. He was still with me in every trial. He made some moves to make things easier for me. Even up to the level of offering his help when it comes to legal matters and stuff like that. I loved him more.. for every little effort of making me feel better.

May. I went to Kuala Lumpur for a very short vacation with my barkada (our first out of the country trip together). It’s very different when you are with your best friends. Nothing beats their company. I hope my family would forgive me if I say that I prefer traveling with my friends than with them, Hehehe. But of course, I also enjoy having vacation with my family. Syempre libre lahat eh. Joke! Basta, magkaibang-magkaiba.. But I didn’t mean anything wrong ha.

Speaking of family, my Dad went home for the Christening of his apo, Mikee. Everybody was so excited since he is the first grandchild on both sides. So basically, there was a slight agawan issue as to who will take care (or even carry) of the baby.

The family also had an out of town trip. Something that we haven’t done together in years (as in dekada na yata). Spending time with the family meant getting closer to them. I know I’m getting older since I am already beginning to appreciate the presence of every member of the family.

June. My Dad left again for the States after a few weeks of stay here in country. Too bad he’s only allowed to stay for three weeks or so as he’s an American citizen.

Again, I had a short vacation in Cebu with Gogolosh (of course). We were also able to celebrate the 25th birthday of Gny (that person who coined the term Gogolosh ). Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to fulfill my dream of going to either Bantayan Island or Camotes Island. Sad. Next time.

I signed up at Slimmers World for a three-month workout just to see if they can help me out with my flabs issues. What did I get? Only perverts and “admirers” of my peaks. Haha!

And because of my Slimmers habit, I also developed this routine of eating after every workout. I usually eat at nearby fastfood chains and restaurants. I suffered from gluttony and the outcome was – FOOD POISONING. It was a restaurant at Megamall which is famous for it’s Eat-All-You-Can promo. I guess it was the Pancit Malabon that hit me. I went through dehydration, nonstop throwing up and lose bowel movement. Sabi nga ng friend ko “parang dinedemonyo ang pakiramdam”

July. The doomsday happened at the early part of this month. Though ours was on its 3rd year, he had another relationship that was running for two years already. I was not the only one. I was just an option.. but I was never the answer. Maybe because he never really loved me. He loves the other girl – he admitted this to me. I was literally introduced to hell as those confrontations and unfolding of truth were happening.

I lost interest in everything. From eating, sleeping, breathing… up to living my life. It was a trial that didn’t enter my system abruptly. On this month I was in denial.

I didn’t even know how I got off the mud. All I know is that – He was not the one. He betrayed me.

August. My birth month. It was supposed to be a Happy Birthday to me because he was there to celebrate with me and my friends. However, I felt that he only did that to make me feel better. As if there’s something to feel better about.

We were civil toward each other yet there was still a little hope stored in my heart, though I knew he never loved me. I just tried to be good.. to be the woman that he deserves.. to at least get a spot — though not a corner for someone that he loves.. even just a place for a good woman that he may opt to spend his life with.

But I failed.

September. I tried to live a new life. Bit by bit I struggled to bring back my old self. I let people enter my life and let them take a peek into my heart. I expanded my network and tried to go out with people I meet.

Eventually, someone knocked at my heart and tried to get inside. I almost fell. Good thing I was a bit guarded. He’s not the one I’ve been looking for. Circumstances were pretty twisted and it was hard for me to swallow his condition. It’s a good thing though, I was able to protect my emotions. Heartbreaks really make us wiser.

October. Another devastating occurrence between us. I thought everything was already concluded. Again, I was brought to misery. The friendship that we developed after the break up turned out to be hurtful for both of us. It was literally hell. I felt like I was misapprehended by the wrong person. Nevertheless, all I can is that “Disrespect begets disrespect.”

The good thing about this traumatic post-break up incident is that I was able to gain a new friend in the person of the “other woman” (forgive me for the term that I used since it’s the one that would best describe you in my own version of the story – you may opt to use this term to represent me ) We go out sometimes, we get to talk most of the time, we have infinite chikas for each other and we care for each other.

Isn’t it strange that I was able to reap good things from my wretched past? You couldn’t blame me though, we were both victims.

November. Finally, I’m back to my old jolly self. Met a lot of friends. Party hard. Enjoying life. I totally forgot everything that has to do with him. My heart’s already beating for some people. It’s not really love – it’s something that’s unexplainable. Infatuation, I guess (Shet feeling bagets?? ) Love is too strong.. I’m not getting near.

This is also the birth month of my Mom and I learned that I can exert efforts to make her happy, not just on her birthday, but all year round.

I had an activity that aimed to slash off an entry on my Bucket List. I went to Boracay and had the time of my life — ALONE. I thought I was going to breakdown and make the sands of Bora my “shoulder to cry on”, but I was wrong. I enjoyed the trip and I was able to meet wonderful people.

December. It’s a Merry Christmas for me. My family’s almost complete (except of course for my Dad who’s based abroad)

I can no longer remember the pain. All I know is that – I AM HAPPY IT’S NOT HIM IN THE END. 

PS: Inspirations are very much welcome to enter my life… Joke!

Thanks to Thea I remember that it’s already December 31st and I need to write my farewell to 2007.. hehehe.

2007 has been rude to me. Hehehe. It was a mixture of ups and downs; sadness, pain, anger, bliss, love and cravings.. what else? hehehe. Nyweis, below is a tracking of what happened in my life in the past year. Di ko na masyado matandaan yung iba eh.

January. Ahh.. I never really want to get back to the feeling when it was January 14, 2007. Hulaan nyo na lang kung ano yun. Gogolosh alam nyo naman yun. Mashakeet pala talaga yun noh? Sobrang shhhaaakkeet! Hehehe.  Akala nila masaket lang ngipin ko. Hehehe.  Pumapasok ako sa opisina pero nakatitig lang ako sa monitor ng PC ko at type ng type  ng kung anik2 sa keyboard hanggang sa masira.  Parang engot na nagttype pero tulo naman luha… at uhog.. hahaha! Good thing my boss was in a conference in Baguio that time so di nya ko jinombag dahil di ako productive.. and my colleagues were really supportive. They advised me to take a leave and have a vacation. Pero ayoko nga.. mas malungkot kaya yun. Sabi ko pa naman gusto ko ma-try magvacation mag-isa somewhere pero katakot yata.. hehehe. Mashaket pala talaga ma-”first time”.. hehe!

February. Panahon ng mga puso and I was so sad. Pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa. At anu fa nga vah e di I celebrated it with my fwends na mga sawimpalad din. Haha.  He finds time to check on me pa naman pero syempre we were friends lang.

They started campaigning all over the Philippines.  He was a legislative staff of Migz Zubiri for 9 years (or and of course, it was also his duty to be a part of Team Zubiri.. they’re doing madugong pagkampanya. And ako ayun, lonely. Haaaay.

March. Ayun.. we started to talk again.  Di din nakatiis si kuya eh. Tsktsk. Syempre umpisa casual pa lang… di msabi ang tunay na pakay. hehehe.  Eventually we got back at each other’s arms. Nakanang!

April. It’s not a good month for my sweetie since it became the “downfall” of his career.  He almost lost hope. And so did I. It was a gray area for me.. I perceived that  I was ready to give up.. He was dwelling and I just couldn’t bear the loneliness and pain in his eyes.  And I felt that he didn’t want me beside him anymore.  He wanted space. AGAIN.

May. I met a friend online. Someone who made me believe that not all people you meet online are jerks. Thanks for the inspiring words everyday dude. Pero sana minsan pakibawasan lang ang kabastusan. Hahaha. Joke. Tandaan mong ikaw lang ang nag-iisang tntyaga kong kausap online. So be good.

Panahon ng eleksyon at natural naiwan na naman ako mag-isa dahil busy si Wryl pagkampanya sa kanyang boss na si Migz.

June. Ano nga bang nangyari nito? Naku basta ang alam ko di kagandahan ang career ko nang mga panahong ito.

July. My birthday celebration in Galera where Noelle met her Prince Charming AJ. So happy for her. It was actually a celebration of Amae’s bday (but she didn’t come with us). Another war with Wryl. Because of some bitches who fabricated things that led me to hating Wryl again. Nandun ako sa shore hanggang dawn. Nageemote habang nagpapakabangag sa alak. Tsk.

August. My 23rd birthday! I’m not getting any younger. It was just sad that on my bday celebration at Metrowalk, he wasn’t able to come (made me cry all night) kase inutusan daw sya sa Senate (hellow hanggang madaling araw??!!) Pero during my exact birthday lumabas naman kame (yun nga lang idinate ako sa isang gig ng mga rakista sa Malate with his friend.. aray ko po..)

This month din we found out Ate’s pregnant. I’m gonna be an aunt!

September. It’s Munini’s birthday (Sept 21).   We celebrated it in a cozy bar along Kamuning Road.  Wryl came to celebrate with us. So sabi nila “Wish ni Anna sana bday lagi ni Nheng.. hahaha!”

October. We celebrated our 2nd anniversary.. sa napakaromantic na McDonald’s sa Pasig. Oha how romantic!

October 6 – Wryl’s 29th birthday (OMG! Malapit na sya mawala sa kalendaryo). Hindi masyado kagandahan at kahabaang celebration. Madami pa daw utos sa kanila eh.

October 19 – My last day at IPI.. My home for a over year..

October 22 – I joined WinSource.. my new home.

November. Negative things started to ruin our friendship.  There were just some things that not everybody could understand.

Nov 11 – Che’s birthday but she’s sad. Mga hinayupak kasing mga lalake yan! Hehehe! Don’t worry Che, 2008 will be better.

Ate’s baby is a boy. He will be named Mikee (kase tatay nya si Mike.. sows.. kesa nga naman MICKEY MOUSE na favorite cartoon character nya)

December. Merry Christmas! It’s a kiss and make up for me and Noelle. After all, she’s my friend. And I love her.

This month I saw the continuous improvement of Wryl when it comes to exerting effort in making our relationship last.

Haay.. ang bilis ng panahon. Parang kelan lang nung ayaw kong bumangon sa higaan ko at ayaw ko pumasok sa office.

Year of the Rat na! I was born in the Year of the Rat! Sana swertehin ako!