One time someone asked me, “How many relationships have you had in the past?”
I told him “Sa totoong buhay dalawa, sa emosyonal na aspeto tatlo, sa teknikal na aspeto apat.. sa aspetong kalandian hindi ko na mabilang.. haha joke! 
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He was surprised by my answer and asked me why I had several sets of answers.
Here goes my explanation.
Emosyonal na Aspeto. I consider a guy a partner when he’s in love with me, the same way that I am in love with him. It’s not necessarily mean that we are committed or we agreed that he is my boyfriend and I am his girlfriend. I belive that words don’t tell everything. Even if we didn’t have clear distinction between commitment and just plain hanging out, being committed through actions was enough for me to say that I had a relationship with him. It is indeed a mutual understanding between me and the guy. I had three in the past. The first one was my first love (not exactly my first great/real love.. just enough for me to say that I loved him because I did a lot of stupid and silly things for him) but we didn’t commit due to some dull reasons. The second was my first real boyfriend. And the third was my third boyfriend whom I have broken up several months ago. Someone who introduced me to the shit of life. Hehe.
Teknikal na Aspeto. When I say “technical” it’s pretty obvious. Someone with whom I had a commitment, or someone who agreed and showed me off as his girlfriend. Someone who’s not afraid to tell the world we’re committed. I had four in the past. The first one is close to perfection, a real gentleman. But sad to say, I wasn’t able to reciprocate what he was giving me. People should realize that love cannot be imposed. And even how good a person is to you, if there’s no spark.. it just wouldn’t work. The second one was purely technical. Yes we were a couple. He was my boyfriend. But I didn’t feel anything special at all. Maybe because it was superficial and “hinog sa pilit” that’s why after a couple of months we broke up. The third one was my first great/real love. A beautiful relationship that was broken. And lastly, the fourth one. He’s my usual topic at my blog for three years now. Even if we already parted ways in a devastating manner.
So let’s talk about my relationships “sa totoong buhay“. It’s so simple.
Teknikal + Emosyonal = Totoong Buhay.
There is a commitment that goes beyond words. Beyond fairy tale love stories. Beyond kilig and twilight moments.
They reciprocated the love that I have given them.
I just consider two people as my Ex-boyfriends sa “totoong buhay“
1. Rastaman. That guy I saw again yesterday after almost four years of not seeing each other.
2. Beautiful Liar. The reason why I am religiously doing blogging. He made me put my emotions into words and made me share my thoughts with other people.
These two people left a big hole in my heart. That’s why I call them my boyfriends sa totoong buhay. Because they made me realize that I am a human, men who at some point in my life lifted me up to have a taste of heaven.. then pulled me down to embrace hell.
These are the people who contributed a lot in making me a better person. Thanks to them, they made me a genius in this thing called LOVE.
Kaso lang baka sa sobrang pagkagenius ko sa love tumandang dalaga na ako.
December 17th, 2008 at 1:21 AM
you’re like love einstein
December 17th, 2008 at 1:25 AM
hahaha. nakakapagod na nga din eh, katakot baka tumandang dalaga na ko. haha.
December 17th, 2008 at 1:26 AM
hmn, napaisip tuloy ako and then inilabas ko ang aking dalawang hands at nagbilang hahahahaha
December 17th, 2008 at 1:27 AM
haha. nakow patay tayo jan. dalawang kamay? mukang madami masyado ah. hahaha.
December 17th, 2008 at 1:28 AM
hello!…
marami pa lang category pagdating sa LOVE…
ako nakakadalawa pa lang nasaktan pa…but its fine parte kasi yung ng LOVE…
December 17th, 2008 at 1:29 AM
hi muymuy! thanks for dropping by my page.
what i have written here about my past is not 100% about love. its about my relationships, and i can say that not all those relationships that i had have given me that feeling called love. some men loved me, some didnt. some i loved, some i didnt. but i call them relationships, because there were some things, though not love, that were present. may it be infatuation or just mere physical attraction. its just close to perfection if love is present
keep on believing. and keep on loving. no matter what it takes.
December 17th, 2008 at 1:30 AM
nice classification. i wonder, saan pumapasok ang kalandian? sa emosyonal o sa teknikal?…hmmm…
December 17th, 2008 at 1:31 AM
hmmm.. siguro hiwalay sya na klasipikasyon. sadyang kalandian lang. hahahah!
December 17th, 2008 at 5:44 PM
Haller!!
Makabagbag damdamin pala love history mo
Ma’am, mejo hindi ko makita ang sinusulat ko dito sa comment form. Hindi ko makita if name ko ba sinulat ko o yun sa iyo..jk
Nice start AC…o eto ha..d2 sa message form..abah kelangan ko 3D glasses…kelangan inanagin hehe
Ayan, tinotoo ko na pag sermon ko…paki ayos po ang colors at baka matuluyan ako mabulag..
Basta…salamat ha, dahil sa iyo, me pambili na ako ng buy1 take 1 burger.
Psst..goodluck sa lovelife in all its whims, risks, and fun!
December 17th, 2008 at 9:01 PM
ayan sige comment lang regarding this site. ng malaman ko kung ano mga dapat baguhin. para pag nagkatime ako maplantsa na lahat. hehe. o gusto mo ng mas makabagbag damdamin pa? eto old site ko http://episode.i.ph yan mas nakakatulo ng uhog. hahaha!
salamat din ross ha. papasakitin ko pa ulo mo sa susunod wag ka mag-alala. hahaha!
December 17th, 2008 at 11:00 PM
Uyy Options na!
Cge ayusin mo…I’m using it sa isang site ko http://kasosyosanegosyo.com/
wala din laman masyado..busy busyhan magtinda ng fisbol eh
December 18th, 2008 at 12:33 PM
naks ang dami mo pala kabuhayan showcase ross! haha. paambon naman ng burger, kahit yung take 1.
December 18th, 2008 at 1:33 PM
Relationships..
For me there are only two kinds.. the WORST and the BEST.
Since those are the ones we remember– nothing in between.
December 18th, 2008 at 1:38 PM
naks. pramis gb di masyado halata pagkabitter mo. hahaha.
kung pwede sana ilagay mo ang url ng site mo dabah? para naman may ibang mabasang makapagbag damdaming ang mga guests ko. dahil isa kang inspirasyon! isa kang institusyon! hahaha!
December 18th, 2008 at 1:50 PM
Haha.. I’m sorry.. I was trying to say..
For me there are only two kinds of PAST RELATIONSHIPS
and never while in a relationship…
December 18th, 2008 at 2:41 PM
wag na. halata ka na. bawal mag-excuse.